Ryan Adams has emerged online for the first time since February. On Friday night, the veteran singer-songwriter, who was accused of sexual and psychological abuse by his ex-wife Mandy Moore and several other women in a New York Times report, teased his impending comeback in a lengthy note posted to Instagram.
“I have a lot to say. I am going to. Soon. Because the truth matters,” Adams wrote. “I know who I am. What I am. It’s time people know. Past time.”
“My work was always meant to be a map for the lost,” Adams continued. “I’ve tried my best to be open and accountable. Not a billboard. I mean, maybe for being flawed. I’ve always wanted to help. I’m trying. So, soon… because it’s time to get back to what I do best. I’m here for the music, for the love and for making things better.”
Adams went on to reference recent traumatic events of his life, including the loss of his brother and his ongoing battle with Meinere’s disease. Later, he wrote, “Believe Women. Believe Truth. But never give up being part of solutions, and healing.” He added, “I’ve lost friends who have passed away in this time of self reflection and silence. I can’t be like that. There’s been too much that mattered.”
You can read Adams’ note in full below.
“I have a lot to say. I am going to. Soon.
Because the truth matters.
It’s what matters most.
I know who I am. What I am.
It’s time people know.
All the beauty in a life cannot be reduced to rubble for confusion, ignoring truths that destroy all the good in us.
This madness and misunderstanding.
There’s enough of that in this world
My work was always meant to be a map for the lost. I’ve tried my best to be open and accountable. Not a billboard. I mean, maybe for being flawed. I’ve always wanted to help. I’m trying.
So, soon… because it’s time to get back to what I do best. I’m here for the music, for the love and for making things better.
I didn’t have an easy life. I lost my brother the day the Prisoner Tour ended. Every night wondering if he would be alive. He was proud of me. My family and my friends were there for that. And so many great fans. For the Meineres community who suffer every day. This music was for then.
It mattered. And that was always for it to help.
So let’s do that. THAT will matter. The amends made and things lost in the noise, that should’ve mattered too.
I want to be a part of that healing. To go play have some great shows and put out these badass records.
But never give up on being part of solutions, and healing.
I’ve lost friends who have passed away in this time of self reflection and silence. I can’t be like that. There’s been too much that mattered.
Thank you for your kindness, your support and for this time I needed to decide how I could be a part of a better tomorrow for everybody.
Sometimes that peace comes from opening yourself up.
That’s who I want to be.
Here’s to that.
With love and with faith-
In all of us and our best and our faults
Adams also posted a number of photos and audio clips, including a soundboard recording of new song, “I’m Sorry and I Love You”. The track was to appear on Big Colors, which has since been scrapped by Capitol Records and Blue Note.
(Read: Mandy Moore Opens Up About Her Marriage to Ryan Adams on Marc Maron)
Update: Adams’ return comes just a few weeks after his manager reportedly quit. New York Times reporter Joe Coscarelli has shared a screenshot of Ty Stiklorius’ Instagram story allegedly featuring a conversation between the singer and his manager.
“I want my career back,” Adams texted, adding, “I want a professional to handle it. And I want to work. And move on. I’m not interested in this healing crap. I want a plan and I want to work. That’s it.” Read the complete exchange below.
Ryan Adams says he is coming back after facing abuse allegations in February (https://t.co/s3bDvfQzpa)
…his return to social media comes a few weeks after his manager quit when he told her, “I’m not interested in this healing crap” pic.twitter.com/1LqquJoGzNAdvertisement
— Joe Coscarelli (@joecoscarelli) July 20, 2019
Moore was one of seven women who came forward in the aforementioned New York Times report, accusing her former husband of “psychologically abusive” behavior. Since then, several women who worked with Adams, including Liz Phair and Karen Elson, have come forward with similar sentiments.
In light of the allegations, the FBI’s Crimes Against Children Squad opened an inquiry to determine whether Adams violated federal child exploitation laws. The musician also lost several endorsement deals and canceled his supporting tours.