“I choose me, I’m sorry.”
The last five words on Kendrick Lamar‘s Mr. Morale & the Big Steppers hit the hardest for anyone who “did the work,” as trained and untrained therapists like to say. Kendrick’s fifth album, out today (May 13th), is a lot of things: part political analysis, part social critique, with a dash of familial observations. But from start to finish, it’s all therapy.
Kendrick’s latest effort is the Compton emcee putting himself on the couch and asking, “Why?” Why is he addicted to women and cheating? Why is he overwrought with guilt when he can’t help old friends? Why does he bathe in toxic relationships? Or even why he’s so damn competitive when it comes to rap?
Kendrick created a double LP sure to inspire tons of ink spillage from the pop culture industrial complex. And you know what? Every drop of said ink is worth it. Mr. Morale & the Big Steppers is another bonafide masterpiece from a cat who seemingly can’t miss when he steps in the booth. Through examining his own psyche, he cracks open the mind of those of us with melanin in our skin.
“United in Grief” starts side one with a voice imploring Kendrick to “tell them the truth.” He begins on a path detailing his insecurities, quirks, and flaws. After more than a decade, Kendrick is a deity to more than a few people who worship at his altar. But that’s not a position he wants to inhabit for even a few seconds of the day. The above song explains that he’s just as materialistic as the rappers whom we compare him to.
Meanwhile, “N95” details his problems with the masks we — and him — wear to hide our truth. “Worldwide Steppers” gets closer to his truth. He questions his motives for sleeping with white women back in the day while admonishing himself for a laundry list of issues. Whether it’s killing other people’s accomplishments, objectifying women, and leaving his old neighborhood as soon as the commas in his bank account made it feasible.
Within the album’s narrative, this is the moment Whitney, his longtime partner, suggests he seeks therapy. And for some, “therapy” is a four-letter word. Mr. Morale & the Big Steppers shows why Kendrick embraced the process and the evolution he experienced as a result.
While side one standouts like “Die Hard” and “Father Time” are indeed dope tracks, the highlight of the side, and the album, is “We Cry Together.” Kendrick and Taylour Paige play a couple going through all the emotions. Calling the relationship “toxic” feels like a disservice to toxic relationships.
The Alchemist-produced track charts the few highs and mostly lows of two people who need to do themselves — and the world — a favor by ending any association with each other. The most astounding aspect is that Taylour and Kendrick channel all that emotion that feels authentic while never forgetting it’s a rap song.
Typing the lyrics won’t do either artist or the song justice, but know this is an excellent exercise in emceeing. Every word is precise and blends perfectly with Uncle Al’s menacing beat. The cherry on top of the bitter sundae is that it fits the album’s theme. “We Cry Together” happens when two people who desperately need therapy ignore it for various reasons. Their union affects everyone around them, and if they have children, their kids bear the brunt of that toxicity. And then it spreads like mustard over an entire generation.
We’re all the results of our parents. What we do with that realization and whether we remain prisoners to our upbringing is on us. Kendrick acknowledges his “daddy issues” on “Father Time,” a title bubbling with double entendre. While chronicling the time spent with his father, he gives another tacit reminder of his newfound fatherhood: “Daddy issues, hid my emotions never expressed myself/ Men should never show feelings, being sensitive never helped/ His momma died I asked him why he goin’ back to work so soon/ His first replay was, ‘Son, that’s life, the bills got no silver spoon.”
Burying one’s emotions is learned behavior, and we rarely think about how it affects others. Those familial traits passed from his father to him even inspire his views on the rap game: “Daddy issues kept me competitive that’s a fact n***a/ I don’t give a fuck what the narrative, I am that n***a/ When Kanye got back with Drake, I was slightly confused/ Guess I’m not mature as I think, got some healin’ to do.”
While rap nerds and tea addicts will undoubtedly read a lot into those words, it has very little to do with Kanye or Drake. Kendrick takes himself to task for believing bygones are never bygone. He told us many moons ago on “Control” that he has no desire to break bread with any rapper after the beef settles.
Hip-hop isn’t in that space anymore, however. While Kendrick may pine for the days when rappers openly espoused the spirit of competition, he acknowledges his need to grow beyond such pettiness. Well, such open pettiness. Even owning something so small is a big step. Especially with the way he finishes the track: “And to my partners that figured it out without a father/ I salute you, may your blessings be natural to your toddlers/ It’s crucial, they can’t stop us if we the mistakes/’ Till then let’s give the women a break, grown men with daddy issues.”