Track by Track is our recurring feature series in which artists guide readers through each song on their latest release. Today, Indigo De Souza takes us through her new album, All of This Will End.
Indie rocker Indigo De Souza has released her latest project, All of This Will End. Her third LP, the record finds the songwriter grappling with each aspect of herself and her sound, clawing her way to find optimism and security.
“I remember having a lot of anxiety during the day, navigating the newly awkward and uncertain experience of doing anything mid-world freakout. I was in an emotional state that felt like a cross between delirious joy and a real, tired hopelessness,” she tells Consequence of the writing experience. “When the neighborhood was asleep, and all the lawn mowers stopped, I felt free to make anything and sing anything I wanted. It was my first time ever living alone. It brought me a lot closer to myself.”
Some songs on All of This Will End reflect that tired hopelessness, sometimes even mining frustration and angst out of such feelings, like the ferocious single “You Can Be Mean.” Others, however, are the sound of the singer centering herself, reminding us of the power of lived experience.
All of This Will End has a lifetime of emotions packed into its 11 tracks, and the sound follows. With a raw, soul-baring mix of indie folk, garage rock, and indie pop, the record is able to find cohesion in its kaleidoscopic approach to the human experience.
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Listen to Indigo De Souza’s All of This Will End below, followed by her Track by Track breakdown.
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“Time Back”:
“Time Back” came from a manic cycle of pain turned into strength and overcoming. Then back to pain. Then anger, and eventually shame. The song is a sonic depiction of the way my pain can sometimes run its course.
“You Can Be Mean”:
I wrote “You Can Be Mean” about a brief, toxic experience I had with a manipulative and abusive LA model fuckboy. However brief, it had a lifelong impact on my understanding of self. Leading up to that experience, I had a history of putting myself in toxic situations and pining for validation from people who treated me poorly. I was stuck in some delusion that I could help abusive people through their trauma and teach them to love me in the way I deserved.
I wrote this song when I finally realized that I could choose not to allow harmful behavior into my life, and that there is a deep, deep importance in protecting the body and spirit. I stopped caring about validation from assholes, stopped thinking it was my responsibility to help them, and started caring for myself in a real way. Once I made that switch in my psyche, I began to manifest truly loving, safe, kind, and communicative people into my life. Being loved in the way I deserve begins with loving myself in the way I deserve. Boundaries are so important. The body is a sacred and fragile thing, and it deserves every ounce of care.
“Losing”:
I wrote “Losing” at a time of great loss and change within my friendships. I was coming to realize the effect of toxic relationships on my life and finding new pathways toward healthier connections. I was coming to understand the importance of boundaries. I was choosing to really sink into acceptance for the natural changes in my world, self, and community.
“Wasting Your Time”:
I actually barely remember writing “Wasting Your Time.” I don’t remember where and when. I just know that I felt deeply fed up with myself and my cyclical mental gymnastics. I felt hopeless against chemical imbalance. I felt like I didn’t deserve people’s time.
Those feelings come up often for me. I’m still learning how to work through them.
